Dear Pita,
Yes, indeed a tea party is among us. And it is to be happening tomorrow, though by the time I finish writing this it may very well be "today", but just keep that in mind. Rather, okay, Wednesday I shall host a party. Yes yes, I normally never invite people to go places, but I have actually created an occurrence in which people will gather together because I, so very shy and unsociable, have asked them to. Isn't that wonderful?!?!
I'm quite excited, though I have no idea how I am going to transport hot water/tea, cakes, and various tea cups to the park whilst I have no way to keep them warm. Well, I mean, the cakes can be served cold or room temperature...but tea? No no, it must be warm at the very least. I shall bring my loverly teapots as well to be passed amongst the masses. And by this, I mean a bunch of girls and Max. (I should have invited more guys, but they don't know Max T_T )
I must say that I hope this tea party takes my mind off of other things...I'm not sure how to think nowadays. It seems just when I think that I've got everything under control something terrible happens. I texted You-Know-Who (You better know who DX ) today and he didn't text me back. Then again, I was kinda mad at the moment, and he probably felt it. Ah well...but then I texted him later and still no reply.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Have I become one of those terrible clingy girls that I despise?! Please help me, Pita. I've felt too many emotions in the last 24 hours for me to be normal. I've decided (rather, I decided two days ago) that I would become a hermit and then I would never have to have relations with anyone except my super awesome cats and my one huge dog. Sadly, I have told this to people, and some express encouragement (not realizing I was serious) and only one person so far as said they would stay my friend, even if I was a hermit...
Maybe I should switch to "Crazy Cat Lady". Either way, I've decided that I won't get into this "love" business anymore. I've been through all kinds of crap for 4 years, and I certainly do not want to go through heartbreak in college. In short, if this ends up as a breakup, please don't be sad for me ^^ I still have friends and family who love me, and a cat who is secretly a human, and my imagination which gives me the ability to make art, which is wonderful. I could never ask for anything else...but I must admit that I won't stop loving him. They say you never stop loving someone, either you still do or you never did...
And I still do.
But I'm getting ahead of myself. Haha that would be terribly awkward if people I knew read this, well, other than you and Quina. I dunno why, but I suddenly realized that I haven't played Pokemon in a couple of days. Maybe that evil Latios has finally gotten to me...I shall never catch him! Waaaaaaaah, how terribly awful. Lordy me, these entries always seem to get longer and longer as I babble on with my foolish nonsense.
I feel so selfish now. I should be happy no matter what happens in my life because of all the things I have and all the things that I will have. I'm going to work hard to make sure that no one will ever be sad. I know this isn't possible, but you have to admit the thought that you could make everyone in the world happy...That you could make a difference like that...Isn't that wonderful?
I hope you're having fun at camp. We need to see the A-Team with Michael (Micheal? So confusing DX )...Maybe getting out of this house more will do me good. And don't forget to smile. You are adorable.
Much Love,
Monchan
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