Iris

Dear Pita,

It's been a year since we started this, more or less, and I feel that it was slowly dying since we began. Are we just beating a dead horse, or am I just writing to myself really...I guess I could start over with a new blog and you could go off into the world and do your cosplays and things. I know it's sort of a bother to keep checking in on this, especially when I've written 4 or 5..or 20 between your entries. I guess what I really mean is that I wish we would just talk like normal people..

Today when I was driving you up to college to pick up your textbooks I realized 3 things, one of which you helped me see:

1) I'm turning into an adult whether or not I like it...and so are you. We're both in college now, so we'll have to take responsibility for all our own actions and take care of business, whatever that business may be, on time and as close to perfection as we can get it. I just hope it is easier for us both this year..

2) Whenever it's just you and me, no distractions, no computers, no other people...You act like one of my best friends. I don't get it. Why can't you always be like that? I certainly enjoy it a lot more, and it makes me feel less...lonely. I guess it's kind of my own fault for not being more sociable, but I think what tipped me off was that you almost threatened to kill me because I almost revealed a cosplay.

A cosplay...seriously? I mean, I know I was being a little mean, but it was a bit of an overreaction.

3) You told me today that maybe the reason I've been a little meaner is because I have more confidence. WHAT?!?! Never D:> I can't have confidence! It seems terrible, especially if it turned me into this kind of person. I don't like it very much...but I have always wanted confidence..and I guess now that I have it I have to turn it into something not so scary. I believe in the you that believes in me, and we'll make it through college alive. I know it.

Pita, I love you very much, whether or not I say so. Rather, I love the you that is being truly yourself, the you that hangs out with me and dances in the car to various Perfume songs and tells me not to dance while I'm driving XD It's so much fun. I can't wait for the early morning drives we will have to college, because I get to talk to you in the way I used to be able to.

It's gonna be awesome. I just wish my life was like a movie and had theme songs and mood music...because I know when we're having fun, I can just imagine the sound in the scene fading out and you hear "Iris" by Tomohito Nishiura playing. It's just like a reminiscent song...and possibly one of the many songs that could be the soundtrack of my life XD I would make that CD to listen to, but my life isn't over yet. We'll have to wait and see..

I hope college is good to you, sis. And if you need me to beat someone up, just point em out. ^w^ This may very well be my last entry. It's been fun.

Love,
Monchan